2008-12-08 - Another welcome visit
2008-04-17 - DS 2008 and still looking good
2006-07-03 - days go by
2005-10-27 - Been a long time...
2004-11-23 - too good to be true
2004-10-22 - still standing
2004-07-21 - ok what next
2004-07-14 - fuck this time and place
2004-07-12 - i fucked things up
2004-06-26 - twighlight zone?
2004-06-26 - twighlight zone?
2004-06-24 - back on track???
2004-06-23 - i fuckin hate men sometimes
2004-06-22 - another death
2004-06-22 - another death
2004-06-21 - sad
2004-06-20 - Grrr
2004-06-20 - Grrr
2004-06-19 - gambling
2004-06-18 - at least i'm not sad
2004-06-17 - finally a lucky day
2004-06-16 - mind tricks
2004-06-16 - mind tricks
2004-06-16 - insert SCREAM here
2004-06-14 - weird
2004-06-13 - the lakers are upsetting me
2004-06-12 - don't even bother reading
2004-06-11 - doing ok
2004-06-10 - i'm not saying anything
2004-06-09 - looking for mr. thanatos
2004-06-08 - i hope the fall isn't too far down
2004-06-07 - magic montana
2004-06-07 - magic montana
2004-06-06 - nice evening
2004-06-06 - nice evening
2004-06-05 - how stupid am i
2004-06-03 - still hanging in there
2004-06-01 - i'm so horny
2004-05-30 - nothin' exciting
2004-05-27 - back to his old self
2004-05-26 - pulled back in
2004-05-25 - jager and tears
2004-05-24 - i'm a loser
2004-05-24 - me and my bad luck
2004-05-23 - kick me a little harder i guess the first time wasn't hard enough
2004-05-23 - prediction
2004-05-21 - what to do
2004-05-20 - smile
2004-05-19 - lady in waiting
2004-05-19 - am i waiting in vain
2004-05-18 - i have to move again :(
2004-05-17 - vegas
2004-05-13 - vegas still in limbo
2004-05-12 - bad news and good news
2004-05-11 - no time for the pain
2004-05-09 - wonderful weekend
2004-05-07 - breathe
2004-05-05 - i'm going crazy
2004-05-05 - another night
2004-05-04 - i want to scream
2004-05-04 - whole lot a nothin'
2004-05-03 - cupid's cruel joke
2004-04-29 - baffled
2004-04-27 - and so it begins
2004-04-26 - sigh
2004-04-26 - goodbye DS - again
2004-04-25 - deja vu
2004-04-22 - a call from DS
2004-04-21 - new page
2004-04-16 - limbo
2004-04-06 - getting evicted
2004-04-01 - bday tomorrow
2004-03-04 - lent, movies and drunken john
2004-02-24 - life still sucks
2004-02-06 - goodbye DS
2004-02-05 - blase
2004-02-04 - to wish impossible dreams
2003-11-03 - ds part 3
2003-11-01 - ds part 2
2003-10-24 - ds
2004-01-31 - always an enigma
2004-01-24 - i'm tired of crying
2004-01-19 - weird
2004-01-16 - and on it goes
2004-01-15 - poker
2004-01-08 - blah blah blah
2004-01-07 - buzzing at work
2004-01-01 - new year - new pain
2003-12-25 - maryjane christmas
2003-12-11 - ????
2003-12-08 - punk star
2003-12-04 - my quandary
2003-12-02 - obliging
2003-12-01 - whoopdidodaday
2003-11-26 - mutual heartbreak
2003-11-25 - perpetual heartbreak
2003-11-17 - disneyland
2003-11-09 - reprieve
2003-10-15 - men
2003-09-18 - sadness
2003-08-14 - ola
2003-07-13 - moving out
2003-07-09 - will my luck hold
2003-07-02 - hello
2003-06-30 - my tidal wave
2003-06-21 - Kuma
2003-06-20 - compelled by fascination
2003-06-20 - SAM is out the door
2003-06-20 - wow
2003-06-17 - if
2003-06-17 - killing time
2003-06-16 - moving out maybe
2003-06-15 - SAM i am
2003-06-12 - the great hug
2003-06-11 - a wee bit of bitching
2003-06-10 - a little down - a little up
2003-06-09 - here we go again
2003-06-02 - :)
2003-05-22 - rambling
2003-05-21 - forgotten memory revived
2003-05-21 - not working
2003-05-19 - cutie P
2003-05-18 - ghost hunting
2003-05-14 - -two new guys
2003-05-09 - Disneyland
2003-05-02 - disney bound
2003-04-29 - cologne
2003-04-29 - testing
2003-04-28 - back again so soon?
2003-04-28 - i must be crazy
2003-04-26 - heartbreak hell
2003-04-24 - wish me love
2003-04-03 - aaarrrggghhh
2003-04-01 - call me
2003-03-31 - tables turning
2003-03-28 - Missing MB
2003-03-01 - desperate plea
2003-01-26 - hello my new enigma
2002-12-22 - goodbye cindy
2002-12-03 - back in Cali
2002-10-26 - here we go again
2002-08-16 - Mr. P B
2002-08-02 - NYC
2002-07-18 - a birthday and some questions
2002-06-28 - the Bitch is gone
2002-06-09 - memories
2002-05-19 - the meeting
2002-04-27 - japanese food is good for the soul
2002-03-27 - California
2002-02-21 - so....
2002-02-06 - the new boyfriend
2002-01-28 - the w.s. syndrome
2002-01-26 - just chillin'
2002-01-19 - goodbye j.g.
2002-01-16 - more heartache
2002-01-14 - moulin rouge
2002-01-14 - back to earth
2002-01-13 - smoke-a-thon
2002-01-07 - ouch
2002-01-06 - i'm so boring
2002-01-05 - rough day
2002-01-03 - goodbyes
2002-01-02 - dreaming
2002-01-01 - happy new year
2001-12-23 - still breathing
2001-12-20 - merry fs christmas
2001-12-08 - the nightmare continues
2001-12-01 - telephone line
2001-11-04 - I suck
2001-10-28 - the game continues
2001-10-24 - not a good day
2001-10-14 - fighting the demons
2001-09-24 - female bonding
2001-09-23 - Watch Me Bleed
2001-09-17 - too high perchance?
2001-09-15 - Too Busy Being Blue
2001-09-11 - New York
2001-09-10 - I fell in love
2001-09-06 - Adventure
2001-09-06 - I have a boyfriend
2001-09-05 - Mind fucks and Heart Aches
2001-09-03 - Disintegrating
2001-09-02 - Tidal Wave
2001-09-01 - Bitter Sweet Wishes
2001-08-29 - falling in love and falling apart
2001-08-24 - pondering
2001-08-17 - missing
2001-08-15 - Two steps back
2001-08-14 - meteors or lack thereof
2001-08-13 - the tables have turned
2001-08-12 - sick cycle carousel
2001-08-11 - refueling
2001-08-10 - two steps forward
2001-08-09 - limbo
2001-08-07 - bird pissed off
2001-08-06 - pet update
2001-08-06 - Pets
2001-08-05 - Still recuperating
2001-08-04 - peaks and valleys
2001-08-02 - Downer Day
2001-07-31 - Unexpected visit
2001-07-30 - intuition
2001-07-29 - pessimism
2001-07-28 - party with enemies
2001-07-27 - Waiting
2001-07-26 - Unexpected words
2001-07-23 - e-mail
2001-07-23 - vulnerable
2001-07-22 - The pains of unrequited love
2001-07-21 - I need some luck here
2001-07-20 - Mr. Perfectly Beautiful
2001-07-19 - Anticipation
2001-07-14 - Another Saturday night
2001-07-13 - catching up
2001-07-11 - confusion and boredom
2001-07-10 - ghost from the past
2001-07-09 - back-stabbing and gossip
2001-07-08 - fireworks 3 & kissing
2001-07-07 - shot nerves
2001-07-05 - melancholy
2001-07-05 - fireworks 2
2001-07-04 - longing
2001-07-02 - fireworks
2001-07-01 - Hi

current archives
cast rings profile
email notes book aim
fans design host