So DS came over one night and being the forward person that I am I asked him if he was at all interested in or attracted to me. He said that he doesn't want to get involved because if he moves in he doesn't want to get involved with a roommate because of the drama that could ensue (side note: I should have pointed out that I'm not a girl - I'm a woman and I don't do drama). So after picking my heart up off the floor I asked him if he would be opposed to being friends with benefits. He said that that night he was (he had some back problems). So I was basically shot down again! Aaargh!!!

He came by on Halloween and asked if I could apply black makeup around his eyes. In doing this I realized I was getting turned on being so close to him and sometimes my body would be pressed against his to steady my arm. It felt good but sad at the same time knowing I won't get to experience him. After work he came back to the house and I took off the fake blood and the eye makeup (sidenote: the next morning he still had a fine line of eyeliner and looked really sexy). I kissed him on the forehead and went to bed.